Yesterday

Yep, well, I'm home again. At least just for tonight. I'll be back in my cousin's house tomorrow night bec. we have boxing classes early Monday morning. In fact, we're going to have boxing everyday. -_- Usually I would look forward to something like this, but after punching (jabs, uppercuts...) my trainer (he had padded gloves on) 40-50 times straight and then him telling me to keep going and not to stop while I stood there, panting for breath,...well, it just doesn't seem like such an exhilarating experience anymore. But I'll get used to it. And then after a couple of days, I'll be telling you how much I love boxing. ^^

Anyway, I'm participating in a 2k fun run tomorrow morning, around 4am. 'night.

Today

Just came back from the fun run. Won a medal. ^^ Anyway, turns out that it was also a religious gathering, and practically everyone was singing praises and such. I just stood there, sipping a glass of orange juice, wondering what the hell was happening. And what's more is that I was actually forced to socialize. Can you believe that?! I'm guessing that this was just a trick my parents concocted to make me an outgoing person. Argh...

Well, I'm home. So...I think I'll use this time to update Breeze Graphics.

Well, gotta go to my cousin's house. I have boxing class with her later. Wish me luck, and I'll be back on Sat.

Adios.

Just had breakfast. I had fish and this squishy, hard, oatmeal look alike but not, rice, with brown stuff on it. Yummy.

*squish*

Anyway. Just plugging. *plug* *plug* plug*

I jogged with my parents this morning, did some yoga and practiced the aikido techniques I learned. I also finally got the new upgraded version of phpBB and uploaded the forum. If you haven't already, please visit, register and post messages. If not, I'll think that I just wasted 30 minutes of an internet card setting it up. So pls. join! ^-^ So all in all, it's been a pretty productive day. The only frustrating part was when the power went out for about four hours from 11 am onwards, just when I was ftp-ing some new layouts. But anyway. It's over, and we have electricity once again.

For some weird, unexplainable reason, I feel like writing today. Not here though. I'd prefer not make them public. I just...I don't know. I can't explain it. (Hell, that's why I used the word unexplainable earlier.)

I keep thinking about this problem that's been bothering me for a couple of weeks now. A part of me says that I should go with what I feel, but another suggests that I don't because of the repercussions that might arise. Nico says I shouldn't, that I should stick with it...but I'm not so sure I still want to. (Hey wait! How come he doesn't want me to...?) Ok. That was just a lie. I do want to stick with it, and be optimistic about the whole situation, but it really bothers me that I have to feel this way. Hanging. Ack. Even 'Richard' thinks I shouldn't.

I'm probably making absolutely no sense to you.

After today, I will force myself not to think about that problem anymore. If I focus on corporeal activities and my websites, I might be able to accomplish that.

Great. I'm lying again.

No, really, I'm not. I'm positive now that I will NOT think about the present situation.

I'm thinking about it right now! Argh....

Should I type that e-mail? Damn it. My mind is getting even more befuddled than it already was.

I'm going to type about other things now.

School starts in approx. two weeks.

I do not want to think about school. School brings Fil. teachers, which in turn, brings oral presentations in FILIPINO. I hate OPs.

Changing again. Whoa! BOO! Ok, I'm slowly turning insane, right before your eyes! Maybe I should watch TV. ....there's nothing good on. How stupid. 40+ channels and not one of them have something good on.

Whatever. Sleep. Me. Let me try that again.

I'm going to sleep now. (Yes! I did it! Whoopeee....)

Night.

New forum. Please join & post. ^^

Well, I'm back at my house again. Checked my mail. 24 new freaking messages. And 15 of them had viruses.

How nice.

Anyway. What I did this week: worked out every morning, slept, ate, learned some new aikido techniques, and made a decision. Next week: work out every morning, yoga at night, sleep, eat, aikido, kickboxing, and hopefully some boxing classes.

Heck. I'm tired and sleepy. And I still have to wake up at 5 tom. morning to jog with my parents. Good-night.

Oh. And join my againstDiscrimination clique.

Earlier

New crappy layout. I dislike this layout, I really do. Why is it up then? It's my damn blog, I can do whatever the hell I want with it! Besides, I worked on it for a full 10 minutes. Might as well show you people what I've done. I'll come up with a new one within a couple of days. Wait for that then. It should be a lot better than this one. God, I hate this layout.

Too lazy now to write any more. I'll do it tomorrow. That is, if I'm still here. I may be at my cousin's house.

Oh great...I can't login to the internet now. This damn card has ran out. Stupid. I still have to upload the new html code. I can't believe this. Now this blog is going to be using the new css file instead of the old one, making all the freaking links black and etc. Crap. I hate internet cards!!!

Now

Hey. Ok, just changed the layout again. It's now a Lain one. What do you think? I like it. If you don't, well, the hell with you. Didn't use Photoshop to make it this time. Just PSP7.

If you didn't already know, I am in a foul mood today. Why? Well, my internet card ran out, I'm stuck at home when I should be out with my cousin taking boxing and my Dad is being so frustrating again. I don't want to dwell anymore on these subjects, so I'm moving on.

On a much happier note, someone requested a layout from me again. This time it's for a band named Liquid Thunder. I'm looking forward to working on it. Never made a layout/website for a band before, so it should be interesting.

Anyone heard of the band 'Stephen Speaks'? I didn't know about them until yesterday night hen my cousin woke me up and told me to listen to a song of theirs. I was enraptured by their music...especially with their lyrics. Just sharing. Listen to one of their songs, ok? I think you'll like it.

I've been having a high appreciation for music lately. Somehow, when I listen to a song, all my worries either get intensified or blocked out. It sometimes makes me feel as though everything I've been experiencing is all an illusion. As if all of it didn't happen to me, but to someone else. Does that seem weird? (I know it does. No need to tell me. ^_-)

I just can't seem to type personal things here anymore. It always makes me feel so awkward to have my thoughts out in the open. Besides, what good has it done me?

It's sort of late to be saying this but, Breeze Graphics and soulair.net both just got new layouts. Take a look.

Anyway, if you're looking for some mp3's to listen to, look for these bands: Stephen Speaks, Toad the Wet Sprocket (weird, yes, i know. but they're good), Puddle of Mudd, Live, Incubus, and lastly, Lifehouse (Everything - it's a song).

Over the past few weeks I have come upon a realization: life is a freaking chess game. The strange thing is that I love chess. The risks involved, sacrfices made, and of course, the kill. It makes me think, forces me to have a strategy, it compels me to plan my every move...it's wonderful. Life is basically the same way. I'm far too lazy to explain it, but I'm sure that you understand what I mean by it. Go here for a game. They're all very good. The only time when I don't like chess is when my cousin wakes me up at ungodly hours and asks me to play a game with her. But I'm getting used to it, so it's not so bad. =)

My imagination has gone to a completely new level. I can sit down on a chair, view situations in my mind and sometimes I can even make myself believe that they happened.
Stupid? Yep. But who cares, right? I once even had a conversation with myself while a friend of mine was talking. I kept answering questions that weren't even asked. I find it amusing. Completely freaked the guy out. He kept asking if I was alright and if the radiation from my cellphone has somehow messed around with my brain. *lol* I need to do that more often.

I'll update again in a couple of days. Arrivederci.

(P.S. Hmm...anyone heard of Kerpal?)

I had another argument with my Dad today. These days it’s starting to seem like a requirement for me to argue with him. He came home in a bad mood, started shouting at me to get in the car so we could enroll, saying that we were so incredibly late and such. It’s not my fault that we were late, it’s his, – why should I get shouted at because of it? I refused to just be quiet and started arguing with him. Now when we talk to each other, it’s plain, unemotional, and I respond to him in the same way I respond to a teacher – in a polite (forced) manner, inside expressing feelings of absolute loathing. Thing is, he is a teacher.

So anyway, I’m back home again. I’ve been working on a new layout for Breeze Graphics. It may be up soon, but then again, maybe not. I’m not satisfied with it yet. I’m such a perfectionist when it comes to these things. Speaking of layouts, I want to change the current one of soulair.net. The only problem with that is that it’s so hard to beat the current one right now. I’m really pleased with the results and I’m not sure if I want to take it down. What do you think?

I’m going to be stuck at home for a while. If anyone’s bored or whatever and need something to do, go ahead and call. Entertain me! =)

I never thought I'd be scared of my Dad like this. It's not like I'm afraid he'll suddenly start hitting me or anything - I know he would never do that. No, what I'm scared of is if I ask him something, he'll freak out on me and start shouting again. And then my Mom will get dragged into the argument and I'll never get an answer to my questions. (can i go to my cousin's house now? can i go watch spiderman with rina?) It's so frustrating living with an overprotective father.

On a more happier note, I finished that layout request for University Satellite. All I need to do now is work on the forum, guestbook and counter. After that, it's payday. =) $24. Hmm...should I have asked for more money? I don't know. But for now, it's fine.